‘Saddest moment’: Tones And I reveals tragic private loss

Tones And I has opened up about a devastating private loss she recently endured, just hours before the most important show of her career.

Australian music star Tones And I has opened up about a devastating private loss she recently endured on tour, revealing that she suffered a miscarriage before having to perform the “biggest show” of her career.

In a new post on Instagram, Tones revealed that she was in final dress rehearsals for the Melbourne show of her current Australian arena tour, at Rod Laver Arena earlier this month, when something felt very wrong.

Surrounded by “30 choir, 30 dancers and 50 crew”, she reached a point rehearsing the show where she had to hit a big note.

“As I hit the big note I felt blood running down my legs, usually an awkward but manageable situation especially since this was a rehearsal and not a show, except. I was nine weeks pregnant,” she wrote.

Tones And I's Rod Laver show was her biggest headlining concert in her hometown.

Tones, real name Toni Watson, confessed she hadn’t intended to tell people about her pregnancy, and instead planned to go “back to the baggy jumpers and pants I once was known for.” She made headlines this year for radically changing up her previously tomboyish style.

“But here I was almost 100 per cent I was having a miscarriage the night before the biggest show of my career.”

Tones and her husband of one year, Jimmy Bedford, immediately left the rehearsal and raced to hospital, where the situation worsened.

“The pain started to kick in and after not sleeping that night I was told I was having a miscarriage,” she explained.
The next morning, on around 11am on the day the show was due to take place, Tones was advised that she needed to rest up and the concert would need to be cancelled.

Tones’ husband Jimmy rushed her to hospital.

The next day, she was back at the venue and ready to perform.

While she said she was “not condoning going against doctors advice by any means,” she said she knew “ there was no way I could let everyone down”.

She left the hospital and arrived at Rod Laver Arena just in time for a pre-show fan meet and greet, the end of her sound check – and then her show.

She performed her full concert as usual that night, 22 songs in total.

“Off stage felt like a blur but as soon as I stepped on stage, I felt carried, it was unlike any show I have ever performed, I was lifted by my family on and off stage who knew nothing,” she recalled.

On with the show: Tones didn’t cancel the concert, against doctors’ advice.

The singer said she told just three people around her on that night about what had just happened.

“I wanted it to be a night I would never forget. I have to say thank you to my team and my family for lifting me through what was truly one of my biggest triumphs and my saddest moments.”

The next morning, Tones returned to hospital and underwent surgery to recover from the miscarriage.

She said that while she is “not a sharer and it’s scary to even write these words”, she wanted to share her story to thank “everyone that was there with me that night”.

Tones has had a break in her tour dates since that November 7 show, and will recommence the tour with a huge show on the steps of the Sydney Opera House this Saturday.

The Aussie singer broke down on stage in Sydney in August during an emotional performance during Hollywood star Drew Barrymore’s Australian speaking tour.

Originally published as ‘Saddest moment’: Tones And I reveals tragic private loss