‘Really dark nights’: Kendall Jenner’s sad modelling admission
Kendall Jenner has admitted to “hysterically crying myself to sleep” throughout her modelling career in a candid new interview.
Kendall Jenner has opened up about the downsides of the modelling industry in a candid new interview, admitting it’s left her, on occasion, “hysterically crying myself to sleep”.
The reality star and model – who has worked with the likes of Chanel, Givenchy and Marc Jacobs – appeared on the latest episode of YouTuber and influencer Emma Chamberlain’s podcast, Anything Goes.
While the 28-year-old acknowledged she’d been “extremely fortunate” in her career and had, for the most part, enjoyed “beautiful experiences”, she also confessed to feeling “overworked” and having to deal with “cutthroat” individuals.
“I’m not gonna sit here and stay that I’ve had the toughest journey … But I also have had my own challenges, whether it’s (being) overworked or not getting a job that I would’ve really loved,” Jenner said, making her feel like she’s “not enough”.
“People in the industry can be really tough or blunt or brutal.”
Jenner, the second-youngest member of the Kardashian-Jenner family, said she’d spent many nights away from her loved ones in service to her career – sometimes travelling alone as a teenager to foreign countries for long stints at a time.
“It is very lonely … I’ve had really dark nights where I’ve been in random cities and just (been) hysterically crying myself to sleep because I haven’t been home in three months and I’ve been pretty much alone the entire time.”
On other occasions, Jenner said, she’ll be away for work and “something really crazy happens at home that I would to be there for, and I’m told I can’t be”.
“There’s been a lot of definite moments where I’m like, ‘What is going on, is this all worth it?’” she told Chamberlain.
That being said, Jenner added it was “a beautiful thing to be able to travel the world the way I have”.
“I probably would’ve never travelled the way I have or the amount that I have had I not had this job. I’ve met a lot of amazing people,” she said.
“I feel very grateful for my experience.”
In recent years, the 818 Tequila co-founder has spoken openly about her struggle with anxiety, which she has dealt with since childhood.
“I don’t see why I shouldn’t be honest about it,” she told Vogue in June, when she appeared on the magazine’s cover.
“In my career right now I feel really stable, really hopeful. But I’ve had a tough two months. I haven’t been myself, and my friends see it. I’m more sad than usual. I’m way more anxious than usual.
“So I’m not going to sit here and act like everything’s perfect. That’s life – I’m always going to be in and out of those feelings. In past interviews, when someone’s asked me about my mental state, it’s always been, ‘I’m great right now, but this is what I’ve dealt with’. Well, right now I’m actually in it.”