Radio host Em Rusciano pens heartbreaking Facebook post about her miscarriage

THE 38-year-old radio host has penned a heartbreaking Facebook post revealing she suffered a miscarriage.

Em Rusciano and her husband Scott Barrow. Picture: INSTAGRAM @emrusciano

RADIO host Em Rusciano has revealed she suffered a miscarriage on Friday and says she will “take some time off” from her work commitments to grieve her loss.

“About 10 weeks ago I got the most wondrous surprise. I found out I was pregnant,” Rusciano told her 250,000 Facebook followers on Saturday night.

“I was going to announce it this Monday as we’d hit 13 weeks, but instead I will be at home in the most exquisite pain I can possibly fathom. Yesterday I found out that my little boy, was lost to me,” she wrote.

“I’d only just seen my baby the week before on the ultrasound, kicking and waving. I’d heard his heart beat and began to imagine what type of person he’d become. What colour hair he’d have, I wondered if he’d be serious like his dad or ridiculous like his mother, or perhaps a little bit of both.

“But now, all I have is that one grainy black and white image, and the rest I will have to imagine. I’m not sure I’m built to withstand this kind of heartbreak, I’m not sure any mother is.

We named him Ray, it was Scotty’s suggestion.”

Em Rusciano with her husband Scott Barrow and their daughters Marchella (L) & Odette (R). Picture: Instagram

Rusciano said while she understands miscarriage is common and many women soldier on with their life commitments, she was unable to even leave her bedroom. She said she would be taking time off work and did not state for how long.

“A lot of you know exactly what I’m going through, this kind of loss isn’t uncommon and yet it feels entirely unique to me. I think you are all heroic for continuing on, I’ve been in the same pair of pyjamas since yesterday, crying a seemingly endless supply of tears and can’t imagine ever leaving my bedroom again.

“So I’m going to take some time off the radio, off performing, off social media, off life. Not for too long, but I need some time. I know you’ll all understand.

“I was worried about the impact me being away from my radio show for a few weeks would have, we’re only new and have so much to do, but I’d be useless on air. The truth is I don’t feel very funny or entertaining at the moment, I feel like screaming and smashing things with a baseball bat Beyonce Lemonade style.

“What’s happened with Ray feels big and raw and something I need to honour and be in the middle of. I’m not going to avoid it or lock it away and power on as if nothing has happened, which I’m prone to doing. I have to get this right so that I can somehow feel whole again, or a version of that. I know that this will forever change me in small and big ways.”

Em Rusciano and her family. Picture: Instagram

One in four pregnant women will experience a miscarriage, according to the Australian Longitudinal Study on Women’s Health. A miscarriage refers to the loss of a pregnancy before 20 weeks.

It’s believed those rates could even be higher, because many women either don’t realise they are pregnant or are ashamed and suffer in silence.

Rusciano thanked her bosses for letting her take time off and sent a message of support to other women who also had suffered miscarriages.

“To the mothers who have gone through this kind of loss and found a way out of it, I’m in awe of you, I need to know how you got through it because I need to see some light under the door soon,” she wrote.

“To our little Ray, you were already so loved by your Mum and Dad and your big sisters. Such an unexpected and welcome surprise for us, I wish we had more time with you, I truly do.”

The 38-year-old has two children, Marchella, 15, and Odette, 10, with her husband Scott Barrow. She hosts the Em Rusciano with Harley Breen show on 2DayFM from 6am-9am weekdays.

Read the full Facebook post here.