Lena Dunham opens up about hitting rock bottom: ‘Didn’t want to live’

Girls creator Lena Dunham has opened up about hitting rock bottom amid a spiralling drug addiction and painful break-up with her longtime boyfriend.

Girls creator Lena Dunham revealed that her relationship with anxiety medication had taken a dangerous turn when she found herself engulfed under blankets with no will to live.

“I was lying in a bed in my parents’ apartment under two blankets, in the same pyjamas I’d been in for three days, and I was like, ‘This isn’t me’. It wasn’t that I was suicidal. I felt nothing. I didn’t want to live,” the 33-year-old told Cosmopolitan UK.

Two years ago, Dunham, checked into a 28-day rehab program for an addiction to prescription drugs after getting a hysterectomy that stemmed from her endometriosis. She also suffers from fibromyalgia and a connective-tissue disorder called Ehlers-Danlos syndrome – which means she sometimes has to rely on a walking stick to get around.

Dunham has been battling through health issues in recent years. Picture: Christopher Polk/Getty Images

Dunham was also mending a broken heart, the result of breaking up with musician Jack Antonoff after 5½ years.

The New York native says that part of the issue was the pair met when she was only 25.

“We were both starting our careers and that was our true passion,” she explained. “The love you have for someone doesn’t disappear because you don’t have them; it’s just logistically it doesn’t work anymore. I love him so much. He is a dear, dear, friend of mine.”

Although she does admit it hasn’t always been easy between the pair and there have been moments where she has been “catty, rude or sassy”, they have been able to move forward and create a deep friendship, she said.

The couple were together for more than five years. Picture: Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images

They broke up in 2017. Picture: Christopher Polk/Getty Images for NARAS

The Tiny Furniture director also revealed that all the major life changes had resulted in a detox from relationships, and it’s been more than a year since she had sex.

“I think it’s been 14 months now that I’ve just been totally single …. I realised that until I was in a dynamic with someone who made me feel super-safe, I didn’t want to do it. People right now will go, ‘Oh my god, you haven’t had sex in over a year’, and I’m like, ‘No, actually it’s been the most healing thing’.”

Since exiting rehab, Dunham has been extremely busy. First there was an appearance in the Oscar-nominated Once Upon a Time … in Hollywood, which was followed by directing a finance drama called Industry (where she relocated to rural Wales to shoot) and executive-producing a high-school series called Generation. And in the spring, Dunham will begin filming her first major movie with another one planned.

This article originally appeared on the NY Post and was reproduced with permission