Aaron Carter’s tragic childhood death wish

THE troubled former child star reveals that even at the height of his pre-teen fame, he never imagined he’d live past 30 years old.

BY Aaron Carter’s calculations, he shouldn’t be alive.

“I thought I would die by 30,” the troubled star told Us Weekly.

Carter celebrated his 30th birthday on December 7, and has been reflecting on life ever since. “Even when I was 13, 14, I thought, ‘Oh my God. I’m going to die,’” he said.

Now that he’s entered a new phase in life — after a hellish year that saw him break up with his girlfriend, come out as bisexual, get arrested and enter rehab — he’s ready to “act like a frickin’ adult.”

Much of Carter’s attention will be on music in the coming months, following his recent 90-day rehab stint. He entered the treatment facility in September at 52kgs and left at 73kgs. He also claims he went in for the past trauma in his life, not drugs.

A healthier-looking Carter post-rehab.

“As soon as I got there, I had to detox from basically weed, Xanax and stuff like that,” he said. “There was also a psychiatrist and a therapist I worked with almost daily … I’m not ashamed of it. I have issues. I never wanted my dad [Robert Carter] to die. I never wanted my sister to die at 25. It’s really hard because after my parents divorced everything spired out of control.”

He says the stress of his past was “literally killing” him.

Of his relationship with his late father, who died in April, Carter recalls a time when his dad saved his life. “When I was 5, I drowned in a swimming pool and my dad brought me back to life,” he said. “I was dead for 10 minutes.” Carter has written a song called “Champion” for him.

Moving ahead, Carter is working on plans to become a father. Nick Carter’s kid brother says he’s thinking about adopting. “I want a kid so bad,” he said. “My goal is to be a father. I want to transcend the shortcomings my parents experience with us.”

This story originally appeared in the New York Post and is republished here with permission.