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From the ashes of September 11

For 15 years photographer Nathan Edwards was haunted by a snapshot lying in the rubble of the September 11 attacks, desperate to know if the mother and child pictured were still alive. News Corp reporter Sarah Blake and photographer Toby Zerna joined him in 2016 on an emotional journey back to the US to discover the truth.

IT was a single snapshot. A tattered flash of colour amid acres of toxic grey ash and twisted steel that blanketed Ground Zero of New York’s twin towers on September 11, 2001.

A simple family photo, it showed a young woman smiling proudly as she cradled a toddler in an embroidered red dress.

But to Australian photographer Nathan Edwards, it was a searing jolt of normal that demanded to be recorded on a day when it seemed there would never be normal again.

He snapped a picture of it lying in the rubble, one of thousands of images he captured as he documented downtown New York after the World Trade Centre collapsed.

Much of what he saw in the coming days was unforgettable. The city and its people reeling and scrambling for answers, searching for survivors.

But there was something about that picture of the woman and her child that clawed at him more than anything else.

Who were they? Did they survive? Were they among those who lost someone that day? Maybe a young dad who had kept the photo on his office desk? Did the baby girl lose her mum?

He thought about it often. At times it became an obsession.

When things were difficult in the years that followed — moving to a new town, an attempted career change — that’s when the mystery of the woman and the baby haunted him most.

He would wake sometimes with those questions turning in his mind and he knew it wouldn’t stop until he had answers.

“Just to find that picture in the rubble when everything else was ground to dust — I guess it felt like a bit of a sign,” Nathan said.

“From the first moment I found it, I wanted to know who the people were, and I really wanted them to be alive.

“As time went on it played on my mind so much.”

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‘IT WAS JUST LYING THERE, THIS BIT OF COLOUR’

Nathan remembers waking on that terrible Tuesday morning with his cameras and lenses strewn all over the floor after spending 14 days straight covering 20-year-old Lleyton Hewitt winning the US Open.

He planned to spend the day with wife Kylie doing what they loved most, wandering around Manhattan, shopping, bar hopping and exploring.

Nathan Edwards working at Ground Zero after the September 11 attacks. Picture: Nathan Edwards
Nathan Edwards working at Ground Zero after the September 11 attacks. Picture: Nathan Edwards
An inferno consumes the World Trade Centre. Picture: Getty
An inferno consumes the World Trade Centre. Picture: Getty

“My boss called and said: ‘There has been a plane into the World Trade Centre and we need you to get down there’,” he said. “My gear wasn’t ready, it was just thrown on the floor because I was supposed to be having a couple of days off.

“So I was putting my gear back together and turned on the TV and my phones started ringing — the home phone and the cell phone.

“Just as I was leaving and standing at the front door that second plane hit, so I said to my wife: ‘This is not an accident, and you probably won’t be able to contact me and you won’t see me. It could be for a couple of days’.

“I got there just as the second tower was coming down. It was a massive rumble and then it was just dead quiet.”

Then another noise started, and it was to sound continuously for the next few days.

“There was a beeping,” Nathan said. “I later learned that when firemen stop moving the little devices on their breathing apparatus beep. That’s them saying ‘I need help, come and get me’, and that was everywhere.

“You could hear them under there. But it was such a mess you would talk to firemen and they didn’t know where to start.”

There was nothing but grey dust and fear everywhere he looked. That first day he spent clambering over the rubble, falling into waist-deep water-filled potholes, as he recorded the rescue effort.

“It was towards the end of the day and I had just stopped to catch my breath and something caught my eye, it was just laying there, this bit of colour,” he said.

Nathan’s 9/11 images

“There was some dust and I didn’t touch the photo, I just blew the dust off to show the faces and took a photo.

“I remember picking it up because I felt like I should keep it safe. I was thinking, ‘What do I do with it’, when I ran into another firefighter on his way out, and asked him. He said he was going to the place where things were being collected and took it from me.”

Nathan doesn’t know whether the snapshot is among tens of thousands of artefacts catalogued after 9/11, but efforts are being made to track it down.

“I remember leaving Ground Zero the first day and I walked back to my office in mid-town and the further I got away from there the more normal life became,” he said.

“I remember walking past Macy’s (department store) and there were people walking out with their shopping, there were people eating in restaurants and having coffee.”

Punch drunk with exhaustion and adrenaline, Nathan was like an ash-covered zombie staring at people like they were aliens and asking: “Don’t they know what’s happened?”

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Returning to ground zero

HAUNTED BY THE PAST

Nathan returned to Australia at the end of his secondment to the New York Post and settled back into life in Sydney, and later Port Macquarie on the NSW mid-north coast.

A second hijacked plane approaches the World Trade Centre before crashing into the South Tower. Picture: AP
A second hijacked plane approaches the World Trade Centre before crashing into the South Tower. Picture: AP

He and Kylie moved north after the birth of their son Jack and daughter Olivia, so they could be closer to family. Nathan dabbled in commercial photography before returning to his first love, news.

He continued to be haunted by the photo and kept trying to answer those questions that sometimes still kept him awake.

At seminal anniversaries — one year, five and 10 years — he cast the net wider but there was nothing concrete, nothing to show who the people were, whether they had survived.

Before the 10th anniversary in 2011, Nathan spent months tracking down the firemen who featured so heavily in his 9/11 portfolio, and he returned to meet them and tell their stories.

To a man, those guys love Nathan. Some hadn’t cried about their losses, but when confronted with his photos of them working so fruitlessly to save their buddies, they broke down.

Nathan was also in touch with survivor groups whose members were increasingly connected through online communities. He regularly posted his photo on their sites.

In February 2015 he decided to give it one last shot in the lead up to the 15th anniversary and scattergunned Instagram, Facebook and the survivor forums.

He’d had lines in the water for years, but for whatever reason, this time one of them gave a tug and by late that night his heart jolted as he found a solid lead through a member of a survivor’s network.

After some not-so-gentle prodding, they offered up the name Jennifer Rothschild Robinson.

Jennifer Robinson worked in the North Tower at the World Trade Centre. Picture: Nathan Edwards

‘NO, NO, IT CAN’T BE’

Stretched out on her hotel bed, Jennifer Robinson was five days into the first break she and her corporate lawyer husband Paul had taken together since their baby Isabelle had arrived.

By now they had found their holiday stride.

Gym junkie Paul had risen early to find a crossfit class near their Cape Cod hotel.

Jen, who only a week before had been so tired juggling her fulltime job as an insurance lawyer with new motherhood that she was falling asleep on the subway, was watching re-runs of MASH as she waited for Paul to come back for breakfast.

As he drove towards their Massachusetts resort, the air above him suddenly screamed so loudly he pulled off the country road. He was being buzzed by two low flying F-15 jets and his first thought was that they looked like they were going to war.

An aerial photograph from the New York City Police Department shows the collapsing World Trade Centre. Picture courtesy of NYPD

He turned on the radio to hear the news as the destruction wreaked on their beloved New York was laid out in snippets of fact, rumour, confusion and fear.

His echoing thought: “Thank God Jen wasn’t at work.”

Paul walked into their room to see her smiling at a joke on the screen.

“I told her she needed to turn on the news and as she did we saw the second tower come down,” Paul said.

“My wife collapsed then. She fell to the ground and it was quite a long time before she could even understand what I was saying. She was just saying ‘no, no, it can’t be’.”

Jen still cries for her dear friend AnnMarie Riccoboni.
Jen still cries for her dear friend AnnMarie Riccoboni.
Valerie Murray was the second colleague Jen lost in 9/11.
Valerie Murray was the second colleague Jen lost in 9/11.

Jen’s office at Ohrenstein & Brown was on the 86th floor of the North Tower. Just seven floors above where her workmates had started their Tuesday morning, five al-Qaeda fanatics had crashed the hijacked American Airlines Flight 11 to begin the worst terror attacks in history.

She lost two colleagues that day, her dear friend AnnMarie Riccoboni, a grandmother and accountant, and office secretary Valerie Murray. The mention of AnnMarie’s name still makes her cry.

Jen doesn’t like to dwell on those long minutes between the first impact at 8.46am and the tower’s collapse at 10.28am. It’s not clear how her friends — and many others — perished.

But almost half of the 2977 victims that day were from above her floor in the North Tower.

Many of those were the falling people, captured on film plunging to their deaths after jumping to escape the horror and heat of the towering inferno.

CALM IN THE STORM

Thinking back on it now, Jen, 50, and Paul, 49, remember not being quite sure what they should do next.

In a daze they went to spend a strange afternoon with friends in nearby picturesque Provincetown. They still have photos showing them in unusually subdued tourist spots, no smiles on their faces.

“After a couple of hours we decided, ‘let’s get on with our day and go to P-town’,” Jen said. “I have this photo which doesn’t quite capture it, but it was like a ghost town — very eerie, very quiet, people just quietly milling about.

“I think we thought we just have to go on with our day, because we didn’t know what to do with ourselves.

“It was like everyone had just decided they needed to do something and it seems strange to look at, but that’s the question isn’t it: What do you do when everything changes?”

Nathan’s photograph of the snapshot of the woman and baby amid the rubble ran on page 12 of the New York Post the following day, and back at Jen and Paul’s upstate New York home the phone started ringing early on Wednesday morning.

Callers were ringing and hanging up lightning fast when Jen didn’t answer because their nanny Carmi was still minding Isabelle while they remained away.

“People in New York, friends of mine, some I was in contact with, others I hadn’t spoken to in years, they opened up the Post and saw this photo and knew it was me,” Jen said.

“Some people were just hanging up when they heard Carmi’s voice knowing it wasn’t me, they were just fearing the worst.

“Eventually she told us what was happening so we told her just to answer the phone saying, ‘Jen’s OK, everything is fine’.”

In the days and years that followed Nathan’s photo wove itself into the fabric of the Robinsons’ life.

The torn page from the newspaper was stuck to the fridge to remind the family of their remarkable good fortune, a talisman that told them every day not to be distracted by the small things.

It meant so much to them they wanted to find the photographer — in part to see if he took the same kind of meaning from his experience as they did, but also to try to track the snapshot down.

They contacted the Post a few times, but in the chaos of that week very few photos were catalogued properly.

“Ever since that photograph came out and we started our search for the photographer it’s been a reminder both of how grateful we are that the outcome wasn’t different for us, and also an open question of who took it and what it meant to them,” Paul said.

“We tried for a long time to find the photographer, but eventually gave up.

“The family is well aware of the picture. It remained in my drawer at work where I pulled it out whenever I had something that was particularly overwhelming. It put things right back in perspective.”

Over the years — with the arrival of another daughter Emma, now 11, and moving to Florida for Paul’s work — the image and its importance stayed with them.

As social media grew, Jen would post it every year on Facebook and give public thanks for her survival as well as pay tribute to her lost friends.

Jennifer Robinson and her daughter Isabelle. Picture: Nathan Edwards

AT LAST, AN ANSWER

When Nathan began searching for Jennifer Rothschild Robinson on the internet, the photo he had taken in the rubble of September 11 was one of the first things he saw on her Facebook feed.

Not only had mother and child survived, she had been looking for him too.

Nathan describes his initial reaction to finding Jen as “like being hit with a sledgehammer”.

He said: “Once I found her on Facebook I was thinking, ‘Maybe they don’t want to be found, maybe they have moved on with their lives and put all that behind them’.

“I sent the message late at night, midnight, and went to bed and got a response the minute I woke up. It was disbelief and then it was euphoria — I couldn’t believe I had finally made contact. It was amazing.”

That morning in the US, Jen’s computer pinged with a message. It was a photographer in Australia who had been searching for the woman and the baby in the photo — was it her?

“I felt so many things,” Jen said. “It just took my breath away. My heart was just up in my chest and I just couldn’t believe what was happening.

“I just went running up the stairs to my husband Paul and I was crying and the first thing I said was: ‘Don’t worry, it’s OK’.

“I just started to tell him about how Nathan had messaged and I just couldn’t believe it, I was just so happy. It was just so unexpected.”

An emotional Nathan finally gets to meet Jennifer.

‘I CAN’T BELIEVE I FOUND YOU’

Travelling from Sydney to Florida, Nathan is uncharacteristically jittery. He’s a laid back country-raised father-of- two with a strong line in laconic asides and, as he gets older, dodgy dad jokes. Even he is surprised at how much he has invested in this search and now that he is actually going to meet Jen — an opportunity she and Paul leapt at when Nathan suggested it — he’s starting to fret about how it’s going to play out.

“What if she doesn’t like me?” he asked at one particularly vulnerable moment.

He’s all nerves again on the morning of their meeting and the tension rises a couple of notches due to the logistics of the film crew we have with us to capture the moment.

Nathan’s pacing on the manicured street outside Jen’s Florida home waiting for things to get moving, this last two-hour delay to set up the shoot proving incredibly frustrating.

Inside the house, Jen is all-American hospitality, offering coffee in any number of ways and bottled water, chatting to cover her own nervousness.

When it’s finally time for them to meet, Nathan walks towards her covered porch and knocks on the heavy wooden front door behind which Jen is standing, clenching and unclenching her fists.

“Hello,” beams Jen.

“Hello, how are you?” Nathan says, bending down to wrap her in a huge bear hug that briefly lifts her off her feet.

Isabelle Robinson still has the dress she wore in the photo Nathan found in the rubble. Picture: Nathan Edwards
Isabelle Robinson still has the dress she wore in the photo Nathan found in the rubble. Picture: Nathan Edwards

“Oh, it’s so good to finally see you. I can’t believe I found you.”

Their sentences are spilling over each other and all their nerves are gone as they try to put into words just how much this meeting means, each of them tearing up as they talk.

Jen explains that the photo had been inside a plastic sleeve in a small photo album she kept in her desk.

It was taken when she took five-month-old Isabelle into her office for a family day the December before 9/11. She has kept the outfit Isabelle, now 16, was wearing and pulls it out with her snapshots of the time to show us.

“When I first saw it I imagined that it had sat on a desk somewhere,” Nathan said. “Everything that day, nothing had survived and to see a photograph that was relatively unscathed when everything around was just dust, was just ground up dust, to see the photo laying there — it just stopped me.

“There were several times over the past 14 years that I was telling myself maybe you will never find them, maybe they did perish. There were a few times when I said to myself, ‘It has been so long, you’ve tried so hard, you probably need to just give up and move along’.

“But something wouldn’t let me give up. A little voice just kept saying keep going.”

Jennifer Robinson visited the September 11 memorial in New York for the first time after meeting Nathan. Picture: Nathan Edwards

A SOMBRE RETURN

A few days after that first meeting we travel to New York to join the Robinson family on their first visit to the 9/11 memorial grounds.

Nathan is at first caught up in the detail, using the few remaining landmarks from his stint working in New York to plot where he was that day, where he photographed the snapshot.

He’s tetchy, but he settles when they arrive. He is genuinely touched at how willing they are to be there, at how this means so much to them as well.

Jen and Nathan break away and drift along the northern arc of the North Tower memorial, whose victims are named in carved metal. They chance upon the names of her friends and hug again.

“I feel like I have a new friend,” Jen said. “Even though it’s only been a few days it feels like I have known him for a long time and I can’t imagine not meeting up with him again.

“I mean, we are on opposite sides of the world but I know our paths will cross again.

“I had never really thought of it before from his perspective. I had always thought about it from my perspective. I had wondered who is the photographer and thought how lucky I am but it didn’t occur to me how much it meant to him.

“I see that now, and even though it’s only been a few days I feel like we have known each other a lot longer.

“When we first met I was so anxious and excited and nervous and we hugged each other and I knew. I knew just how important it was to him.”

Paul says the experience of meeting Nathan had been “transformative” for Jen.

“She had essentially given up on finding the photographer and it was sort of like an open wound that remained in connection with the whole terrible event,” Paul said.

“There was something that was very important that compelled both of us to find who took the photograph and after a couple of years trying we ultimately gave up. But we never lost the significance of the photograph.

“I am watching Jen as Nathan has come over and I see this has shifted a piece that I think may enable her to actually put this whole experience in a good perspective.

“It was something that was left open for her and we talked at least annually about: ‘I wonder who took this, I wonder what they were thinking, I wonder why this particular photograph?’.

“Watching the two of them, there is sort of a tacit kinship that you can see exists.

“Because it very well could have been whoever took the photograph didn’t care and it just happened to be a photograph they took. And it could have been that we said: ‘Oh interesting, our photograph is in there (the paper)’.

“But the combination of his intensity in pursuing this and Jen’s attachment to the photograph and it’s meaning was, for lack of a better word, incredibly special.”

That Jen and Nathan were both so invested in the search for each other underscores the serendipity that skips so lightly through this story.

It is a tale of fateful linkages and chance. Of luck and despair.

And of the power of a single image to inspire for almost 15 years.

It is wonderful for so many reasons.

But above all, it is special because it is a simple distillation of the power of hope.

Nathan, centre, and the Robinsons have formed a friendship that will last a lifetime. Picture: Toby Zerna

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